Bring on the Wonder

The song was played on a tv show. I liked the song so I searched it up and found it ^.^

Susan Enan
Bring On The Wonder lyrics

I can't see the stars anymore living here
Lets go to the hills where the outlines are clear

Bring on the wonder
Bring on the song
I pushed you down deep in my soul for too long

I fell through the cracks at the end of our street
Lets go to the beach, get the sand through our feet

Bring on the wonder
Bring on the song
I pushed you down deep in my soul for too long

Bring on the wonder
We got it all wrong
We pushed you down deep in our souls for too long

I don't have the time for a drink from the cup
Let's rest for a while 'til our souls catch us up

Bring on the wonder
Bring on the song
I pushed you down deep in my soul for too long

Bring on the wonder
We got it all wrong
We pushed you down deep in our souls, so hang on

Bring on the wonder
Bring on the song
I pushed you down deep in my soul for too long

Envy...

Yesterday during placement, I felt like I was lacking... a lot of experience...even tho it's my 3rd shift...last one is on friday~~~

And I know from the lecture that it requires experience... but still >.<

I'm starting to feel jealous that people can have one look at the person's face and tell about their personality... just by looking!!! Or that they can predict this and that.................

and cos i'm one of the younger-ish ones.... now I feel like wanting to grow up fast enough so I can get that experience.... I needed that yesterday~~~ T.T

I remember when I was a little kid and wanting to grow up quickly and catch up with my cousins and sister...and then as i grow older, I'm having this 'Peter-Pan' syndrome where I just want to be a kid again...

not that I was acting childish........ but it's starting to annoy me when I still have that 'oblivious' trait still working...one too many times....

I don't understand why I still act like this.... the way I am now.... If I had known/predicted back then... I wouldn't have put myself in danger in the first place... I had someone to help guide the way instead...

If he didn't tell me what he was so concerned about...then..... I'll prob be freaking out a lot more from that placement. After he told me, I told him that i didn't even notice at all!!

I could've just taken his word and stayed in the truck....but.....I'll be dealing with ppl who may be like that... so I just wanted to like.... not hide from it... cos then I won't be helpful in the future....if I keep running away from it all...

but still... my personality betrayed me yesterday that i couldn't even save myself. Someone had to do it for me...

I wish i can be like him and my friends who do have that talent... but that talent has to be earned... It's not gifted...(It would be nice if it was.....)

Holidays coming to an end

Time really did fly the past 2 weeks...

Last week was going out with friends that I haven't seen in so long and the memorable Road Trip to the Great Ocean Road/Lorne. which was worth skipping my public holiday work for....(i can get 2.5 pay any day)

This week was working on the group assignment/doing a bit of studying for bioscience... I've considered getting RPL (Recognised Prior Learning) for this subject cos I did science last year... But thinking about it... I'm starting to learn on the physiology side so i prefer to stay.

Tomoro is the last day of hols and after that.........who knows when i'm going to see friends again.... probably be 6 weeks again..... *sigh* unless there is an event during a weekend and when i'm not working...There's still a lot of people I have to meet in order to catch up to everyone else... I seem to be more and more inactive...

I wish there was longer hols but that would most likely be dedicated to study also.... since it's mid sem.... next hols hopefully there's a bit of freedom to look forward to once exams will be done.

I don't know what the next 6 weeks have in stall for me...apart from assignments....more assignments....harder info to take in.....exams.... I have a feeling I'm going to pull and all-nighter for the first time this year after my clinical placement on Monday...depending if I get mass emails from my group so i can get a word count/edit the work/study like mad for the test the next day x.x It kinda sounds like I'm doing most of the work but I don't mind... I don't want other ppl to take responsibility of what i'm doing cos they are working and all. I'm more accessible so I don't mind.

I'm won't be surprised if i'm gonna be stressing for during those 6 weeks...but for now I'll just go with the flow.

The East and West

are no different

Despite all those stories, we are....no different.

I'm kinda getting annoyed of hearing that St Albans is (this and that).....all those negative comments....they are....driving...me....insane!!!!!!!!! And having to constantly hear about it too....

And I kinda don't understand how those comments are being made in general...and we have friends that live there... does that make me a weirdo too????? Am I a bad person???? Do I go and trash the place etc etc etc?? C'mon~~~~ stop it already!!!!!

I, for....2 months, have not seen anything bad. Apart from that drunk guy giving racist comments at 11am is not bad.... we can get that anywhere.....(yes...anywhere!!!!) Bad things happen here too.... geesh....anywhere is not safe.....even my suburb....not just St Albans!!!

90% of the time I spent there are friendly people. There are people I see at least once a week (cos i buy stuff from them/eat there lol) and people in the buses etc.

No need to be so judgemental... It's kinda like how Vic Uni is the worst uni ever...(again we're no different to the other unis......)

I can tolerate this kind of crap... but to hear it 5 times in a row...=.= it can get offensive....

Food....

I told my mum yesterday after my 14th time of checking the fridge for food that there's nothing at home for me to eat.

"Look mum!!" *pulls out the Nutella from the back of the pantry* "There's hardly any left!!" *opens the jar* "and it's...old....and......gross.........."

mum: "buy more then..." *looks in the pantry and pull out the Little Bites Chocolate Fudge Brownies* "you can eat this"

"....That's Owens snack...and and and" *opens the fridge* "There's no juice for me to drink (T.T) or milk (T.T)" *stares at the box of soft drinks and at the small container filled with Tim Tams that has caramel in them*

sigh... *goes back to snacking on the Shapes*

mum: "we'll buy juice tomorrow"

I'm too used to my pantry....well...it's sorta empty.... sultanas and those Lite snacks and pasta...and nutella that doesn't look too old and hard....and my fridge is pretty much empty hehe. only juice and yogurt and the lil easter bunny i received and 2 bags of dumplings that i stole from home XD

T.T I miss my kitchen

I've been too busy to go gyming so I have to be careful with what I eat. I don't really feel like eating fast food and hot chips as much as I did last year. My test is in 2 weeks time but I don't have time to go to the gym before then cos of clinical placement -.-" I think my arm muscles are a little toned... (but i don't really know...cos I haven't tested my strength yet) Eating more veggies and drinking lots of juice. That chocolate fasting broke yesterday cos my friend ordered a hot chocolate for all of us (us 3 friends) at Vanilla and I was like ".................." I didn't put sugar in as usual so it didn't taste so chocolatey/sweet.

I think I should reduce the cheesecake consumption also XD I bought like a massive slice at Casey Hospital during my lunch break on Monday (and it was like...5 bux, so it was a bargain ^.^ so I was happy <3<3<3<3<3<3<3) and I bought a small slice yesterday at Vanilla (which was interesting cos it had pistachios on it and it was like....6 bux) I'll prob try the other greek cakes next time I'm there.

It was good seeing 2/3 of my friends. I haven't seen one of them in over a year. So it was a good thing we got to see each other. Did the usual girl talk we always talk about lol... now it seems that 'boys' are a new topic since we left high school cos it was like...our first time in 6 years seeing a lot of guys o.o (well...apart from their lil brothers lol) hmm... we were pretty much nagging one of our friends to get a facebook so we can communicate easily hehe and talked about ex-AvCol ppl. "Oh you remember [insert name here]?? yeah she's.....[random things here eg pregnant/engaged getting married/ in Perth]"
lol....facebook stalker.. XD gee I wonder what things will be like in 5 years time....soon approaching the period where we're gonna see our high school friends getting married/engaged already 0.0

A collection of unexpected incidents

prac --> oxygen therapy and equipment

Me: *fiddles with the equipment* we pretty much played with everything in there.. let's try the suction *gets her water bottle and adds a bit of water to the bowl*

Partner: Ok...why not...

We both tried to figure out where the tubes go on the O2 cylinder.

Me: does it look right?

Partner: I think so...*turns it on*

Me: *puts the sucker in the bowl* .....it's not sucking...

Partner: hmm...maybe it's the other one *swaps the tube and turns it on*

Me: ....nope.... which one is it meant to go into?

Partner: I don't know.. let's ask.

The assistant came over and checked our tubes and said it was right the first time.. for some reason it wasn't working so she went over to try the other groups kit.... My partner and i watched and the other kit seems to be working fine

Me: :O Why won't our's suck?!?!?!?!

Friend who overheard and watches what happened: cos it SUCKS!!!!

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Me: hey hey let's go over to the other kit...since our's won't work.... and try the suction..

Partner: ok!

*both of us joined our Friend and we try to figure out how to set it up again and we turned it on*

me: *tries to feel the suction* ....it's not...working......

Friend: *rearranges the tube* how bout now?

me: ...makes it worse....

Friend: *calls for assistant* MISS!! our suction isn't working!!!

Assistant: No I'm dealing with it again!!

Friend: But we STILL don't know why it's not working....

*assistant comes over and see me and my partner*

Assistant: you again!!! stop cursing the suction!!!!

Me: I didn't do anything!!!!!!! T.T

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*watches a paired group next to her with a new oxygen cyclinder*

girl: how do you get the wrapping off...

guy: you just twist it like this

*twists the wrapping off*

guy: there...now we need to crack it ('crack' mean to turn it on a LITTLE bit and quickly close it)

girl: .....*stares at the cyclinder* but i'm scared....

guy: you just do it quickly

girl: *turns the knob*

PPPPPPSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *girl finally turned it off...*

*silence*

group on the other end of the room: what the ****?!?!!

me: oww.......... x.x *rubs ears*

guy: ....not that quickly........



prac --> on CPR

Me: aww...the baby is soooo cute!!!!! *picks up the manikin and hugs it* and soo soft too~~~

Partner: hehe... it is cute

me: looks like an ordinary baby you find in the toy section... i want~~~~ *hugs*

*puts the baby down on the ground*

me: we use 2 fingers right?

partner: yeah

me: *presses and the manikin makes this puffing noise* It's making noises too...

*baby stops making the puffing noise*

me: :O omg it's not working!!!! what did i do >.<

partner: you killed it

me: no i didn't!!!

*quickly adjusts the baby and presses*

me: yay~ it's working again~~~

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*assistant was demonstrating how to perform CPR on a newborn using our lil baby manikin. He finishes and picks up the baby*

*hears some rattling sound in the baby*

Assisant: *looks* and there's something in it's throat.. *puts it up in the air and shakes it..*

the object failed to come out

Assistant: grabs the baby by the feet and shakes like mad*

Person 1: is that how you do it on a newborn???

Assistant: *stops* course not!

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We all stood around in a circle, watching two of our members trying to roleplay. (which is something we're all bad at... we can't control our laughter when we're roleplaying XD)

Person 1: [playing the 'hysterical' mother and clutching the baby manikin in her arms] *mimics a mother tone* my child! my child!! it's not breathing!!!!

Person 2: [playing the paramedic] ok...can i have a look at it??

Person 1: *still hugging the baby*

Person 2: It's ok, I'm gonna see what's wrong with it.

*person 1 hands person 2 the baby manikin*

Person 2: *inspects the baby and puts it on the table* So what happened to the baby

Person 1: I dropped it

*group laughs and the assistant wasn't happy so we stopped....* The Assistant takes over Person 2 and showed us what we should do.... the proper way to approach things...

Assistant: *inspects the baby and puts the mask on* What happened to the baby?

Person 1: I dropped it....

Assistant: When was this?

Person 1: ...10 minutes ago..

Assistant: Did it cry?

Person 1: Yeah it did...it vomited too...

Assistant: when did it stop breathing? [while he talks, he was performing CPR on the newborn]

Person 1: about....5 minutes ago....

Assistant: [still in his serious tone at the start]I see.... How the **** you drop the baby??

*group laughs* well at least he showed us at the start... but we all lost it at the end XD