Sixteen Days

During the holidays, I've been doubting my abilities as a paramedic student. I DO want to be a paramedic, I guess for lots of reasons.

 

You're probably wondering what the title is referring to.

 

I'm just counting down…

 

… to that day where I see for the first time how confronting this job takes.

 

I've already bought leggings to wear under my overalls. Haven't really found a warmer top to wear but I'll just wear a singlet and hope that I don't freeze while working. Getting my gear ready for my very first emergency clinical placement. In the real world where I 'should' be in 3 years time.

 

As exciting as it may sound.. I'M FREAKING SCARED!!!!! >.<

 

Apart from having the lack of clinical background cos I'm a first year. I'm more worried about the cases I will come across in my first shift. I hope they don't make me take the patients blood pressure… T.T

 

But who knows… there might be… someone at home with painful chest pain… someone…who got attacked and got bashed up… maybe someone having a cardiac arrest. Or a big vehicle accident. I'm more worried about seeing death again so soon… we haven't really.. been taught of the process.. tho I don't think we will anyway.. =.= only thing related to death was… "ring this number for counseling etc etc"

 

I still got the card in my bag.. but I don't wanna ring!!!

 

Well hopefully the those 2 weeks of uni will make me feel ok before I wear that green overalls… and its more troublesome compared to the polo and pants =.=" so many.. pockets for pens and clips and badges… I'm more looking forward to finishing the shift and change asap. change of clothes just in case…