I thought it was over

I thought I could sleep a bit easy tonight.

But that thinking is back again. =.= leaving me restless now.

Yesterday (ok not really yesterday, it was thursday) after my prac, I was looking forward to going to JB to get the first season of Merlin cos it came out that day. Did a bit of shopping and went home and watched it asap. During then, it kinda made me forgot about what I was thinking of. So it made me feel a bit better I guess. I guess watching one episodes ended up being a marathon and didn't finish til about 4am XD but the next day was a day off and just packing stuff to go back home so I can sleep in.

I surprisingly had about 6 or 7 hours of uninterrupted sleep even though it felt like I had a really short dream but meh.. started to clean up a few things before going home.

Then the darn songs on my CD collection made me think about it again =.= but I was like "Don't worry, it won't happen anyway and stick to the solution"

Was on the forum chat for a while when we suddenly talked about dreams out of the blue. I only remember one tiny bit of it. and I was wondering what it meant. so I checked the meaning.

I recall talking the lift to meet some people and I wanted to go up. but in dreams where pretty much everything can happen, the lift went a bit too fast that it missed my level. so it went down quickly and when we got there, for some reason it malfunctioned a bit and went faulty while me and a few other ppl were still inside. and then it opened again. So it pretty much went up and down and died lol.

Elevator
To dream that you are ascending in an elevator, suggests that you will quickly rise to status and wealth. You may have risen to a higher level of consciousness and are looking at the world from an elevated viewpoint. Descending in an elevator, suggests that you are being grounded or coming back down to reality. It also signifies setbacks and misfortunes.

going up hey? Sounds positive.

The up and down action of the elevator represents the ups and downs of your life. It also symbolizes emotions and thoughts that are emerging out of and submerging into your subconscious. Alternatively, the dream may have sexual connotations.

........it can't be what i'm thinking of can it?

To dream that the elevator is out of order or that it is not letting you off, symbolizes that your emotions have gotten out of control. It may be a reflection of your life or your career. You are feeling stuck in some aspect of your life, whether it is your career, relationship, etc.

...........out of control?!?!?!!?!? OUT OF CONTROL?!?!!?!?! grr.. i hate how accurate this thing is!!!!!!

And while I'm lying in bed, I feel troubled again... what to do... what to do... I actually havent talked to anyone about it... cos i was sure that it was solved. I've grew up to lock all the secrets inside. 11 years of it. And the outcome from last holidays, I've lost trust in everyone.