A reminder

Man, the weather over here is always the opposite of what I thought.. back over in the east side, its always cold/windy/not a good day… over here it's a cloudy overcast but its sunny in the arvo… today I wasn't going to be fooled from the morning weather so I wore my purple jacket that I bought online for the first time. The winter jacket that I bought at the sale was only worn once… -.- I sometimes wonder what winter will be like…

 

I always have a 2 hour break on Wednesdays so I spend that time walking to the shops and eat my Vietnamese food at the place I go to every week… sometimes more…the restaurant owners know me. their food was always nicely presented. My dad is a chef and what he does is just smack-bang the food on the plate/bowl. No need for presentation… I remember doing food tech in high school, I wasn't used to presenting food to make it more appealing. It was kinda hard for me cos back then I focused on one thing and not the other… if I make it nice and pretty, the food won't taste nice.. and vice versa lol XD but that was…. Years ago~~~

 

Had to go to the real estate cos I had to fill in another maintenance request form…(yes..another one) cos I found water under the kitchen sink but I don't know where the leak is coming from.. its no where near the pipes…..and I put a container on where I "think" it may come from but I keep missing it grrr……

 

I went to a shoe store during my lunch break and I was looking for shoes to go with my amaranth outfit.. since.. I've been looking for them for months now…

I finally found a pair and tired them out, and the shop owner said that I look like a cartoon character from behind. o.0 the way I did my hair made her think that I look like a cartoon character lol.

The shoes were on sale and she offered me a 10% discount. They were comfy.. and I told her that I'm not used to high heels… x.x these are the highest I've got… now that I got the shoes, my amaranth outfit is almost complete~

I was carrying 2 bags as usual.. but I had to put my laptop down so I can pay.

She saw me picking up my laptop after that and she was like… "You in uni?"

"yeah"

"oh! What course are you studying?"

"Paramedics" (it felt like it was me first time I ever said it @.@)

"…oh really?!?!?! well good luck with that!"

"thanks…"

Then she blabbed on how she knew I was in first year based on how young I look… and kept saying that she will never remember that cartoon character… kept wishing me all the best when I left.  I bet she was thinking about that for the rest of the day…

 

The walk back to uni kinda got me thinking… from what I remember so far, it's the first time I said what course I was doing to a stranger.. I suppose it does sound a bit odd cos we only have 3 paramedic courses here…2 in NSW, one in Adelaide, one in queensland and Perth I think…one in NZ..it's not what you hear in everyday life when it comes to uni… normally its science/art/med/commerce etc etc etc

 

I have learned things at least everyday…not just the uni work… but on life as well. I remember a few weeks ago at work when I befriended a recovery shift girl and I kept her company in the book section. And we were reading cookbooks and books on sale and stuff. And we were flipping through pages of these photos of animals and she said, "aww~~!! There are too many cute things in the world~"

……omg I never thought of that XD

Today I reminded myself on why I am doing this course… and I'm slowly learning about other people as well. I mean, there could be many reasons why we're all in this room together…but I found out that a majority of us has this connection… not only did most of us lost a close person, or has someone who is ill…but I think we all have this caring factor……

 

When last year when I flipped through the VTAC offers, as I was losing hope about the science degree, I was thinking…maybe….just maybe… I could do it… I asked rainey for advice last year and said to give it a try… like I flipped though every page… nurse…engineer…it was like.. so many paths, either opened or closed,  and I would have to pick one… that I will have for the rest of my life. I thought it would be interesting, going on the road, being first on scene, and working just how you are going to keep a person alive. Once that case would be over, you're off to another one who is crying for help… busy 24/7… imagined what family dinner would be like.. sis coming for a visit from work in her uniform… me in my uniform preparing for my next shift, hugging my nephews goodnight.

 

What I thought about 12 months ago was just something that doesn't exist anymore. At the end of the year when I unexpectedly received my early round offer. I did take a risk, I remember after getting my sem 2 exam results I had to change my preferences, at first I had Vic uni last… ACU first.. but because of the 'nursing' I didn't want to end up there… so I switched it around and made vic uni first… even though I was afraid that I'll bring shame to the family because of vic unis reputation (back then my family consider it as a TAFE). I was hoping that I'll end up in NSW… but I was worried that I won't get in cos its quite competitive… I just wanted to play safe…I mean… the early round came the day after I did my no VCE test.. the results wouldn't come that quickly.. and I was thinking how the course coordinator chose me without looking at my results… there was only one answer… my VTAC Personal Information, which is pretty much answering questions..  funny.. I still got my copy in my usb XD reading back at it, this was sent like…7 months ago o.0

 

Not ONLY do I believe that I can pursue this career, but in all honesty, (and I'm guessing that those I do have in common may have this reason too…) we don't want the victims and families to feel our pain… the pain that I experienced last year. Do our best to try save lives (in reality…. A small percentage survives in resuscitation/defib it's not like the tv dramas where they come back to life after having 200J passing though their body) but we all care for others wellbeing. And I'm guessing that this is one of the reasons why we are united together. Note…. It's just a guess…