Review

I haven't been blogging much… mainly cos I was either:

-busy

-got nothing to write about

-avoiding anything emo, cos I don't want the attention… (I think I got that too much today -.- not the emo part… might get back to that later)

Hmm.. what happened since I last blogged…………

-PHYSICAL/MEDICAL TEST

Yes I passed ^.^ the venue was on St Kilda Road.. and I got lost lol… accidentally took the wrong tram there XD but other than that, I'm happy.. the medical wasn't as scary as I thought.. no needles involved.. just answering questions about my medical history, getting measurements (height, weight)……go in this tiny box to test hearing (I don't like small spaces but there was a window so that was fine) and then it was physical~ and I just passed. I'm happy with the flexibility…. First time I did it I would get 0 marks.. now I ended up getting 4 marks, which was above my goal.

-UNI WORK =.=

Says it all… I'm glad I finished that 1500 word case study… not looking back! Now I just need to focus on the group media presentation.. now got 8 ppl in the group instead of 10. Found out one never took the course in the first place.. and the other recently discontinued so he can see his sick friend overseas so that was sad to see him go :( other than another rumor about him leaving but I won't mention it here. Met my group today for a meeting and someone pointed out that there is only one guy in the group XD we just kept teasing each other during that meeting lol.. been corrupted on the way too =.=

Did the fortnightly (and last) bioscience test today. And it was soo SOOOO hard T.T I didn't finish it *sob* feel so bad cos I didn't study… yes it was open book…. And I realised during it that I don't have half the lecture notes >.< I was sooo screwed.. won't be surprised if I failed cos I guessed them all… the lecture wasn't really helpful cos the guy was going too fast.. and being on muscle and bones…. He admitted that he doesn't know anything about it =.= he just read the lecture slides that were made from a lecturer last year. *sigh*

-CLINICAL PLACEMENT

The shift after my last blog was my last one~ kinda laidback… my vic uni roster said I got work at 9am.. turned up…. And the guy read their roster and said I wasn't scheduled to work til noon @.@ so I ended up tagging along with someone, who was the same guy from last time ^.^ and we had a new partner. So it was ok. Did a few maccas runs in the morning.. we did plan to go to maccas again but case was to do a double load… and then we found out there was a nurse escort =.= so I had to be left behind cos there weren't enough seats.. if we didn't do a double load, I would've been strapped to the stretcher… but that wasn't the case. Had to be left behind at Monash Medical Centre for 3 hours… in the waiting room -.- so boring.. only had my phone so I was on msn for a bit… turned it off hoping the PTOs will come back but yeah… patience…

Other than that, it's been an ordinary day.. had a few issues here and there but I tend to ignore… which is bad but.. I tend to forget when I got something else on my mind. But everything's ok…watch tv a lot… damn.. I should really study T.T

I got one 'exam' next week.. just a clinical skills assessment.. there's like a list of skills and 2 are pulled at random and I have to successfully perform them… so it only takes like.. 10 mins.. then there is one a fortnight after that.. which is theory.. and I think I have to write about what I would do in this situation.. apparently it only goes for 20 mins… its like… the shortest exam I have to write lol XD

I'm coping well in Vic Uni... I guess I have more acquaintances but then in reality, we'll know each other in the end.. one day we'll all know everyong doing the course... finding a friend to hang out with at lunch time would be impossible cos 90% of us are doing our own thing. the 10% goes to the pub nearby I heard lol. And I'm used to my routine... so I'm happy... my group gets along really well. lol.. one night I was out in the city with Phe, Kriz and Alex and one of the ppl in my group rang me about the case study that was due in a few days time lol. I thought it was about our media presentation XD It's the first time I've been rang and help lol... It was kinda beneficial for me cos I started brainstorming on what I was going to write while I was helping... seeing that i didn't even start XD

I think the group sees me as.. "cute" (i've been called that =.=""""), naive maybe... girl who never leaves her laptop lol.. and "always study" or "always has something to do". After having 2 lectures cancelled today... I told my friend that I might clean the house.. which I ended up sleeping -.-""" I haven't mopped the floor... but it gets really dirty within minutes.. so its getting hopeless... no matter how hard I keep things clean, it gets dirty instantly.. *sigh*

I had a really weird dream last night.. and i woke up really confused... I do have a habit of taking my dreams seriously... I don't know if its a good thing or a bad thing.. but i get really confused if i don't know what it means... o.0 and when I looked at the dream interpretations on the website, it does make sense...cos i was thinking about my problem minutes before i slept.. cried a little in my sleep but that aside...

Last week we had a lecture on death and dying... yes the lecturer understood..said ppl can leave the lecture.. warned next week was a lecture on suicide.. so we're gonna be covering topics that are uncomfortable... it was a bit unsettling for me.. I thought i could handle it... but i rushed out the door before i drove back home and yeah..... let's not go there.. I was just having a rest... I was thinking about whether or not to go to the next lecture...suicide isn't a nice issue to talk about... but i'm glad that i'm still here... still alive...

we're going to be seeing this on the road so it would be useful to know about it i guess.. I intended not to go this thursday but after that dream, I'm kinda fence-sitting... like working out that case study where I was just fence-sitting... but I have to pick a side...

briefly... the dream kinda started when a doctor said to me that I'm going to have some...surgery (o.0) of some sort.. (lol... random.. i was perfectly fine XD) kept asking why I need to have it.. reply was that my family said so (wheres my autonomy~~~??) Involved cutting around my wrists and my abdomen to remove 'something' (-.-""" random........)
So I did have this weird surgery and woke up... etc etc.. I remember...2 nurses... who came to check on me...and I couldn't talk.. cos something was in my mouth and i puked lol... (last time i vomited was.... 7 years ago so i forgot how to puke ;P)... I then remember I wanted to check my wrists.. and see what te doctor had done lol and i rolled up my sleeves and saw to pink scars above my wrists.... I don't like how scars are visible... all pink and standing out..

but that was all I remember... surgery, vomiting.. and scars.... So I googled them

Operation
To dream that you are having an operation, suggests that you need to get something out of your system or cut it out of your life. Perhaps you need to let go of something or change your habits.

alternatively...

Surgery
To dream that you or someone else is undergoing surgery, signifies the opening of the Self and/or the need for emotional healing. You need to "cut out" or eliminate something from your life. Alternatively, you are feeling the influence of some authority figure.

Vomiting
To dream that you are vomiting, indicates that you need to reject or discard an aspect of your life that is revolting. There are some emotions or concepts that you need to confront and then let go.

Scar
To see a scar in your dream, symbolizes struggles and/or painful memories and bad feelings which may have never entirely healed and still continue to linger in your mind. It suggests that your past still has some influence or effect on your life. Alternatively, a scar may represent deep-seeded insecurities which may be holding you back from accomplishing your goals.

It's interesting how all 3 related to each other.. I've had dreams where things have lots of different meanings. But I think it refers to how I cope death and dying etc etc etc all those confronting issues.. one part is telling me to go to the lecture... other is telling me to sleep in lol...I'll read the lecture notes of course.. it's gonna be on the exam dammit!!

And I think it's about time i'm going to bed.. lecture lecture... must go to lecture tomoro..